(Sorry for the delay in posts. I could give you some excuses but I figure you want me to just dive back into the story instead, so here you go…)
Saturday finally came. The big day where D and I would meet and see where God took us. I woke up early that morning, got ready, and headed to our agreed upon meeting place….a coffee shop. I was remarkably calm. I had no doubt that this was where God was leading and I had always felt very comfortable talking with D before this so I wasn’t worried about that.
D was already at the coffee shop when I got there. I had a suspicion that he probably got there much earlier than we had planned…it was just a hunch but it turned out to be correct 
I was not nervous…at all. But I noticed D’s hand shook a little as he got his coffee. He told me later that he just didn’t have a clue what I was going to say so that’s what made him a little anxious. We found a seat and started talking. We talked for at least three hours without stopping. We covered a lot of ground in a wide range of topics. From finances to kids to God’s timing to…well, you name it and we probably covered it. We pulled no punches. We saw no point in doing that nor did either of us feel we had that luxury. This was a big deal that didn’t just affect our lives but our kid’s and families lives as well.
But at the very beginning of our conversation, right after we sat down with our coffee, D looked at me and said he had something kinda crazy to tell me. He prefaced this by saying that he didn’t think too deeply into dreams but this dream was one that was worth telling. He had just had this dream the night before and in his dream he was in his bedroom sitting on the bed. He was just sitting and when he looked up, Josiah was standing there and Josiah said “here’s what you need to know about Jess” and then in the dream Josiah went over to the dresser, opened a drawer and pulled out an envelope, and handed it to D. D opened the envelope and pulled out a piece of paper, but when he looked down to read it he saw that it was blank. D then looked up and instead of Josiah standing there, it was D’s wife Becca. She looked at him and smiled and said “It’s OK. It’s really OK.”
And then D woke up.
Both Josiah and Becca were very altered by their cancer when they died, but in D’s dream they were both fully restored and dressed in white. He said it was just so clear and real feeling.
Wow, was all I could say after D was done telling me his dream. Now I don’t put much thought into dreams either, but I believe God can and has used dreams if He wants to…and I don’t believe that dream was a coincidence. God is a God of details and His hand was so very evident in the details of bringing us together.
At the end of our conversation that day, neither one of us quite knew how to leave it. It was clear to both of us that God was doing a work, we just didn’t know where it was heading yet…or what to call “us” exactly. But we were both just excited, wherever God led us!
I drove home and decided to try to take a nap. That didn’t work. So, I made a quick lunch and drove to the park to try to eat. Well…I still couldn’t really eat either. But I also couldn’t stop smiling…I mean literally, I really couldn’t stop! Eventually, I drove over to my parents house to talk with my Mom and I was telling her about how the morning went and I said “Mom, I’m just so…happy! That may sound silly, but it just feels so good to be happy…it’s been a while.” And that is how I felt and in my text messages back and forth with D…he felt the same way! God was working and in His goodness and love He was bringing such a giddy, wonderful, warm, deep, happiness into our lives and it was SO good!
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To be continued…
